Just trying to fill up space :D

I was going through some old files and documents today, trying to find some shit to delete and I found THIS :)


I wrote this ages ago, like before I started my degree. So yeah just thought I'd share it here.


A little bird told me I’d be lonely today;
What the little bird said came true.
What he should have mentioned was far more important;
That lonely I’d be because of you.


Why did you have to come into my life;
With the force of a dozen whirlwinds gone mad?
Why did you illuminate my darkness with your smile;
When the darkness had become my companion and friend?


Your light blinded me to all else I had known;
All I could see was you.
Emotions, thoughts were amplified when you were near;
Your closeness was the only thing that saw me through.


Your voice held me spellbound for many a night;
Your words eased my pain and stole my heart.
Silly girl that I was, I fell in love;
The fault wasn’t mine, for you played your part.


My willing heart waited for you, even in agony;
My pride was disregarded and cast aside.
You were all that mattered, or so I told myself;
Sadly my love was not meant to abide.


You left me groping blindly in utter darkness;
You trampled on the very heart you had stolen.
The pain you took away, you multiplied by a thousand;
My spirit, my soul were neglected, hopelessly broken.


The evil pain still creeps in slowly sometimes,
Leaving me with heartache and pointless tears.
The sight of you still makes my broken heart pound;
The sound of your voice still vanquishes my old fears.


For the shelter of your arms I crave in silence;
For the comfort in your words I long.
For the sight of you walking to me with that lopsided smile
I’d neglect the difference between right and wrong.


So why, little bird, did you tell me not
That he would not hesitate my heart to shatter?
That a piece of it will now and always remain in his hand
And if I attempted to move on, it wouldn’t matter?

I'm so jealous

Today was the day of our impromptu speeches for Public Speaking. I've been feeling a little queasy about it so I was looking forward to getting it over with. But guess what?


I didn't get to do mine today :S


How much does that suck? Sudhan got to do his though. Miss Kiran was soooo happy. She called him a super speaker and said that he's the best impromptu speaker she'd ever heard. Wow. So yeah. No pressure.


His topic was retrenchment :S Yikes. He was talking about how his dad got retrenched and how it affected his family. After his awesome speech was over, he came and said "Thank God my dad got retrenched". LOL


I don't know what I would have done if I had gotten that topic. So yeah, thank goodness his dad got retrenched hehe. So my speech will be next Tuesday. In front of the entire lecture class instead of the tutorial class. Thanks a lot Miss Kiran. No added pressure at all. I'm not gonna stop talking for the next few days :S


Anyway I was practicing with Sudhan today and it wasn't so bad. But it wasn't awesome :( My speaker savvy has gone missing for the moment. I'm hoping I recover it in time for my impromptu speech :S


Speaking of speeches, my topic for my persuasive speech got shot down. Damn. I was looking forward to it too. So now I have no clue what I'm gonna do for the persuasive speech and the outline is due next Wednesday. Awesome shit. For some reason, the only topic that comes to mind is S&M. Hehe not too sure that would go down too well with the lecturer. She already shot down Aaron's topic of Pornography as an Art Form :P So yeah, S&M, I don't think so.


Maybe I should talk about tv shows. Since that's all I've been very up to date with :) Hey I could talk about Criminal Minds. But what to persuade people about? :S


Finding a topic is getting harder than I thought. Anyway, I did promise to update my blog but not to this level of boring shit assness. Oh well, hopefully something more interesting comes along soon :)

What to do, what to do?

I'm loving my semester so far :)


Why, you ask? Well I happen to be taking only ONE subject. This subject happens to be everything I need to right now, namely relaxation. It is called Public Speaking and Oral Presentation. Too good to be true? Wait til you hear the rest. NO FINALS??? Noooooooooo........


So yeah. I'm free as a bird to do whatever I please and guess what?


I'm bored :S


Lol I really need something to do. I have nothing much to study and the only thing I could prepare for at the moment is a persuasive speech I have to give next week. And yeah it may sound a little soon but it's a short semester, everything comes too soon. 


Just 7 weeks of doing some shit in Public Speaking and I'm free. I don't need study break, I don't have finals. Wow. Too much free time. At least carolling is coming though :)


Speaking of which, Michael will be in charge of carolling this year. That's right, the very same Michael Cowling studying in Australia. He'll be back in November though. Hasn't given us much time to miss him lol. He's been coming up as though travelling from JB instead of Australia. So yeah, he's got plans. We're trying to rope in all the young people so we the older bunch don't end up syok-ing sendiri and yelling ourselves hoarse so we can be heard. 


Musicians are scarce though. So far we've only got Joash and Keith to play the guitar. Managed to convince Lisa to try and brush up with her playing so she can at least stand in when they're tired or whatever. Sudhan seemed very enthusiastic when I asked him if he could help out a little with the guitar playing. So all I need to do is constantly nag these 2 monkeys to practice, practice, practice. Awesome, I get the mom job again :P It seems Nygel can play the bongos. YES!! New blood :) Other than that, no sound. Which is pretty sad but when has that ever stopped us? :D


Aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway, when we went for Patrick's brother's wedding on Saturday I saw this small girl (whose name was my middle name :o) dancing and it really had me itching to do a dance for church. It's been so looooooong. Of course I haven't forgotten the headaches and knocking of heads on walls to get things done. But still, it would be so fun. If only the Christmas Party was a sure thing we could start planning but it seems the road is strewn with obstacles yet. Sigh.... It would still be fun though :D Would be nice to see all these macho obsessed guys start shaking their hips doing the girls steps again. Although at the time it would definitely piss me off that they're practicing the girls stuff more than their own. And telling the girls that the guys steps are shit easy and we're the ones who have to do all the work. Lol organising the dances (not to mention the dancers) were always a headache, but a fun one :P


Other than that I suppose there has been no news. 
G has left for Kampar :( 
Mom's birthday is approaching :)
My birthday is...still far away but approaching :) 
Qades is at industrial training so I haven't seen him in ages :( 
Diwali is approaching :) 
Jasmine became the smartest friend I have :) 
The Suicidal Rejects were formed :P


So yeah. Til next time :)